No reason for this, it popped into my head so I did it.

The gist of what it said was that people that don’t pray are in the hospital 3 times longer than people that do.

Seriously? There are people who actually believe something like that?

Where did they get this information? Are there people standing outside all the hospitals asking people how long they were there and if they pray to the christian god?

I cannot believe that there are people that can say things like that as if they were true. It boggles my mind that anyone could believe something like that.

Yes I know we’re talking about people that seem to live their lives based on faith, rather than facts. Still, that statement is beyond faith. That is just stupid.

It’s beyond stupid even. It’s insane. Pure insanity. MADNESS!

The story is the Death of Sim’Nha recounting the legend of the fall of the Original home city of The Empire.

Here is the Story: The Death of Sim’Nha

One day my name will be on this list. I can only dream, and keep working for it.

1994 Ricardo Dela Corte, Italy, test tube baby born to oldest, 62, mother
1982 Ryan Cabrera, born in Dallas, Texas, musician, pop rock, hit singles include, ‘On the Way Down’, ’40 Kinds of Sadness’, ‘True’, albums include, ‘You Stand Watching’
1979 Julie Gulbrandsen, Miss Arizona Teen USA 1997
1974 Derek Anderson, NBA guard for the Cleveland Cavaliers
1972 Anfernee “Penny” Hardaway, Memphis, NBA guard, Orlando, Gold Medal 1996 Olympics
1972 Bernard Williams, NFL tackle for the Philadelphia Eagles
1972 Bruce Walker, NFL nose tackle for the New England Patriots
1971 Kristi Coats, LPGA golfer, 1995 Ping/Welch-66th
1970 Dusty Imoo, hockey goaltender, Team Japan 1998
1970 John Kalin, CFL safety for the Calgary Stampeders
1970 Margaret Langford, Vancouver BC, canoeist 1996 Olympics
1970 Patrick Dancy, TV rocker, Guys Next Door-I Was Made For You
1967 Jeff Lageman, NFL defensive end for the Jacksonville Jaguars
1967 Vin Diesel, born in New York City, New York, actor, director, producer, appeared in ‘The Fast and the Furious’, ‘Pitch Black’, founder of One Race Films production company
1966 Dan[iel Dion] O’Brien, born in Portland, Oregon, decathelete, Olympics gold 96
1965 Robert Holland, CFL defensive back for the BC Lions
1965 Yugi Iga, hockey forward, Team Japan 1998
1964 Susan Marie Snyder, actress, Julie-As the World Turns
1963 Lonnie Young, NFL safety/cornerback for the New York Jets
1962 Engelbert Linder, hockey defenseman, Team Austria 1998
1962 Jensen Buchanan, born in Montgomery, Alabama, actress, Vicky/Marley-Another World
1962 Jack Irons, American Musician
1961 Elizabeth McGovern, Evanston, Illinois, actress, Once Upon a Time in Amer
1960 Anne-Marie Johnson, born in Los Angeles, California, actress, In the Heat of the Night
1959 Audrey Landers, born in Philadelphia, actress, Afton-Dallas, Chorus Line
1958 Margo [AM] Vliegenthart, Dutch 2nd Chamber member, PvdA
1958 Nigel Twist, born in Manchester, rock drummer, Alarm-In the Summertime
1957 Nicholas Alexander Faldo, born in England, PGA golfer, 1992 British Open
1955 Teresa Ann Savoy, born in London, England, actress, Caligula
1955 Vitali Viktorovich Savitsky, biologist/politician
1954 Imtiaz Ali, cricketer, brother of Inshan One Test WI vs. India 1976
1954 Ricky Skaggs, born in Cordell, Kentucky, country singer, Heartbroke, Toy Hearts
1954 Robert Cameron, CFL punter for the Winnipeg Blue Bombers
1954 Tobias Picker, born in New York City, New York, composer, awarded Joseph H. Bearns Prize, Guggenheim Fellowship, Award in Music from American Academy of Arts and Letters, composer-in-residence for Houston Symphony, 1985 – 1990, music publisher, Schott Music Corporation
1953 Peter Greenall, English brewer, Greenall Witley
1952 James Forbes, basketball player 1972 Olympics silver
1951 Bruce Alan Lietzke, born in Kansas City, Kansas, PGA golfer, 1978 Canadian Open
1950 Richard Branson, British music enterperneur, Virgin Atlantic
1950 Mark Udall, American Politician
1949 Dennis Lillee, Australian cricket fast bowler, 1971-84
1948 Cesar Zuiderwijk, Dutch rock drummer, Golden Earring, Radar Love
1947 Ayn Rumen, born in Brooklyn, New York, actress, Janet-McLean Stevenson Show
1947 Kurt Mann, Roslyn, New York, actor, Bad Penny
1947 Steve Forbes, American Businessman
1946 Tim Lynch, rocker, Flaming Groovies
1945 Danny McCullock, London, rocker, Animals
1944 Jonelle Allen, born in New York City, actress, Bessie-Palmerstown USA, Berringers
1943 Bobby Sherman, born in Santa Monica, California, singer, Shindig, Here Comes Brides
1943 Calvin Peete, born in Detroit, Michigan, PGA golfer, 1979 Greater Milwaukee Open
1943 Robin McDonald, Scotland, rock guitarist, Billy J Kramer and Dakotas
1942 Alexander EHAML, prince of the Belgians/son of Leopold III
1941 Jack Jersey, de Nijs, Indonesian/Dutch singer/producer
1941 Lonnie Mack, born in Aurora, Indiana, rocker, Baby What’s Wrong
1941 Marcia Jones Smoke, born in Oklahoma, 500m kayak 1964 Olympics bronze
1941 Martha Reeves, born in Detroit, Michigan, singer, & Vandellas-Dancing in St
1941 Bill Delahunt, American Politician
1940 James Brolin, born in Los Angeles, California, actor, Dr. Kiley-Marcus Welby, Peter-Hotel
1940 Joseph Torre, outfield/manager, Braves, Mets, 1971 NL MVP
1940 Joe Torre, American Athlete
1939 Brian Auger, born in London, fusion keyboardist, Befour, Genesis
1939 Dion DiMucci, born in Bronx, rocker, Dion and Belmonts-Teenager in Love
1938 Britt Leach, actor, Mickey-Spencer’s Pilots
1938 Dudu Pukwana, Mtutuzel, South African/British saxophonist/composer
1938 Paul Verhoeven, director, Basic Instinct, Total Recall
1937 Hunter S. Thompson, American Journalist, born in Louisville, Kentucky, writer, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
1935 Tenley Albright, born in Boston, Massachusetts, figure skater, Gold Medals 1952, 1956 Olympics
1934 Roger Reynolds, born in Detroit, Michigan, composer, professor, University of California at San Diego, founder, ONCE Group, won Pulitzer Prize 1989
1934 Edward Bond, English playwright/director, Blow-up
1933 Aad Nuis, Dutch writer/undersecretary of Education, D66
1933 Raymund Murray Schafer, Sarnia, Ontario, Canada, composer, Patria
1933 Yevgeny Yevtushenko, Zima Russia, poet, Bratsk Station
1931 “Papa” Dee Allen, born in Wilmington, Delaware, percussionist, War-World is a Ghetto
1929 “Screamin’ Jay” Hawkins, born in Cleveland, rocker, I Put a Spell on You
1929 Dick Totten Button, born in Englewood, New Jersey, figure skater, Olympics gold 48, 52
1929 Michael Medwin, English actor, Four in a Jeep, Scrooge, Checkpoint
1928 Simon Vinkenoog, Dutch writer
1927 Kurt Masur, German actor, Hotel Deutschland
1927 Ludwig Harig, writer
1927 Zin Harris, cricketer, father of Chris New Zealand batsman in 50′s and 60′s
1926 Bryan Johnson, singer/actor
1926 Jane Hylton, born in London, England, actress, Adv of Sir Lancelot, Daybreak
1926 Richard Pasco, English actor, Gorgon, Arch of Triumph
1926 Margaret Laurence, Canadian Novelist
1926 Elizabeth Jennings, English Poet
1925 Jaime de Mora y Aragon, actor/publicist, Last Judgement
1925 Shirley Strickland de la Hunty, Austria, 100m dash, Olympic-bronze-1948
1924 Howard Roberts, born in Burlington, New Jersey, choral director, Leslie Uggams Show
1924 Inge Sorensen, born in Denmark, 200m breaststroke, Olympic-bronze-1936
1924 John Cruickshank, French scholar
1923 Hector Tosar, composer
1922 Thomas Kuhn, American Writer
1921 John Glenn, born in Cambridge, Ohio, astronaut, Mercury 7, STS-95, Senator-D-Ohio
1920 Dolph Sweet, actor, Gil McGowan-Another World
1918 Jane Frazee, born in Duluth, Minnesota, actress and singer, Alice-Beulah
1918 Nelson Mandela, born in Qunu, South Africa, political prisoner, ANC, President,
1918 Pamela Brown, born in England, actress, Alice in Wonderland, Dracula
1916 Isaac [Ietje] A Diepenhorst, Dutch lawyer/minister of Education
1916 Kenneth Armitage, English sculptor
1915 Anthony Cox, English architect
1915 Isaack Stouten, resistance fighter
1914 Harriet Hilliard Nelson, born in Des Moines, singer and actress, Ozzie and Harriet
1914 Herbert Collum, composer
1914 John G Bearer, writer, Metro, Drunken Canary, Fast Heartbeat
1914 Jozef MLT Cals, Dutch premier, KVP, Mammoth Law
1914 Mack Robinson, U.S., 200m dash 1932 Olympics silver
1913 Jan Slot, Dutch mayor, Eethen/Hardenberg/Ede
1913 Marvin Miller, born in St. Louis, Missouri, actor, Space Patrol, Millionaire
1913 Red Skelton, born in Vincennes, Indiana, comedian, Red Skelton Show

It’s called ‘An Imperfect Mind’.

The album is really an expression of the Manic-Depression I suffer from. It starts off kinda dark and depressed, then fluctuates through different moods.

Here is the Play List:

An Imperfect Mind I – Not a very structured song. It is representation of how my mind tends to wander. Yet repeat the same things.
Call to Death – An experimentation with Black Metal styles. Aggressive metal parts are split by near depressed and sad bits. Has a cool finish.
Evil Messages – An odd dance track. Made unsettling by the fact there is strange speaking through out the song.
Funky Space Drop – A return to old friends. Part funk and Part space electronica.
Hip Acid JaaaaZ Hop – Continuing the fun with another jazzy trip hop song.
An Imperfect Mind II – The fun ends with this aggressive and rage filled track.
In an Acid Funk – Just like my own rages I tend to come out of them rapidly, then get moody. This is another Acid Funk song to return us to the funner side of things.
Lunch Break Beat – A pretty straight forward break beat song.
Psychedelic Peace Offering – I think I was drunk when I was working on this. It’s very trippy, and rather peaceful. Thus the name. I really like this one.
An Imperfect Mind III – A return to depression. Uses elements of the first two songs, but much slower and… drained.
Robotic Lullaby – Inspired by a messed up radio.
ScatMan#1
Scatman#2 – These two tracks are just me having some fun. Scat style vocals.
Tip Toe Through The GraveYard #2 – Another of my creepy songs. No matter how many times I listen to it, it still gets me in a couple of places. Good little chills.
Untitled – An odd song, but good. I never could think up a name for it.
An Imperfect Mind IIII – Mania returns. Elements from all 3 previous tracks are used. This time they are faster, and jumbled up.

The whole album is a trip through my moods. Here is the Link: An Imperfect Mind by Ryan ‘acidhedz’ Murphy

The whole thing with asking for donations to help start an entertainment company is about following my dreams.

I guess what it all boils down to is I am afraid of being forgotten. I don’t want to be just another blip in history. A nobody. Someone that lived a life that will just be forgotten and left in the dust.

That’s why I work so hard to build my network of sites that make money for me. It takes time, and I find I don’t have enough for the things I got into this for in the first place. My writing, music, game ideas and movie ideas.

I try to do things I really enjoy, but I find myself working on making more money than anything. I make enough to get by, not enough to be remembered, not yet. I need to be remembered. I cannot die without leaving a legacy, I just can’t. I don’t want to die at all.

That is the great joke. The thing I hate more than anything else. That I will never get to do all the things I want to do. I will never see history unfold. I am forced to fade to darkness. I hate that. So I strive day after day, working for hours, to find a way to break through to the light and start building a true legacy.

Children are no legacy to me. I don’t want people to remember me through kids. I wont be remembered. Once the kids are gone, I am gone too. Nothing but a name in a book somewhere. That’s not being remembered. The way people think of people like Mozart and Davinci. That’s being remembered.

I can’t stand the thought of it. Being nothing.

I have to succeed. I have no other drive in my life, without my dreams I am nothing and I have no life to live for. It all becomes meaningless.

Do you ever think about things like that?

I can’t help think about it every day. Every time I start a new site and say, this is the one. This is the one that will put me over the edge and let me start building the dream for real. It’s always an itch, an ache in my head. Nagging at me. Making me hate myself for never getting quite where I want to go. Never quite achieving what I should.

What about your dreams? Do you still try to seek them out? Have you given up?

I really don’t know why this is so important to me. It’s like an obsession. This drive to be remembered. I can’t work at a real job, not take it seriously. They have always just been stepping stones to my dreams.

Where does that leave me? Who am I without my dreams? No one.

I don’t know what to do. I keep working, and my efforts are never enough. Never enough…

I just don’t know.

If you have seen my post/page asking for donations for starting an Entertainment company then you know why I seek more than just a comfortable living from my online activities. I have real goals, and dreams I want to achieve. I can’t do that with my current level of income, which is nice, but not enough to pull ahead.

Here are some of the things I want to work on.

7 different games I have been working on. They are all purely conceptual at this time.
One if them is based on a book I am also working on. A fantasy novel. I have 26 pages worth of ideas for the game, and I still expand on it from time to time. If I can get the funding to move forward with my company it will be a true next generation MMORPG. For example, it wont have classes. It will also feature an alignment system with 14 alignments that will affect pretty much everything you do in the game.

There is my fantasy novel. You can learn a lot about the setting of the book and the game in the forum of the http://ryanmurphysbrain.com/chronicals-of-qkui-nip/ sub-site. I wish I had the time to write more in general.

I make music. Acidhedz.com was my first site, and it is still around. Although woefully underused.

There is my Tee Shirt Site with my designs on it.

If I could hire on a couple of people, a friend of mine and my cousin actually, I would be alble to focus more on these fun sites, rather than my network of affiliate sites. That’s the problem with doing online marketing, it can be very time consuming sometimes. Of course I tend to over extend myself, so it’s partially my fault.

So other than making money on my terms, and being my own boss, that’s what drives me.

I started up Blogging for Money Masterplan as a way to both make more money, but to also help other people learn to make money online as well. I have put a lot of time and effort into the site, and I continue to add more to it.

Since I like everyone that visits here I would like to give you first dibs on my latest addition to the site.

A free Article Marketing Training Course

A free Affiliate Marketing Training Course

There is also a Free Membership with additional resources.

For example yesterday I had a dream that struck me as interesting so i started writing a story based on it. Then i got an idea for a new game based on the old battle bots TV show. Combining yesterday and today I have written about 5 pages of the story, and I have about the same in ideas for the game.

I have no way to publish my stories except on the stories blog addition I added last month. I certainly have no one to work on my game ideas yet. I think this new one puts me at 8 or 9 game concepts I’m working on. One is actually over 25 pages worth of ideas.

My dream is to start up a production company. I want to have the people and equipment to bring all the stuff in my head to life. It isn’t a cheap endeavor.

That is why I’m calling on you. My readers, gaming fans interested in helping new games to come to life, and everyone that would just like to help.
I have many, many things I want to do. You can help me finally start getting all these dreams out of my head and into the light.

I have an issue with trying to do everything myself, not asking for help. Well, this time I will ask for help.

I am asking for donations to help me get this whole thing started. I figure I need about $100K to get the equipment and employee’s I need to start.

I have already had a $20 donation, and thank you for that Sam.

Everyone that donates will be thanked in a list on the company website when it goes live.

My goal is to bring happiness to people with games, music, stories, and even films. What better cause is there?

Please visit this page and give something for the cause: Donate Here

— On Thu, 6/17/10, Yahoo Service Alert <alertservice2010@hotmail.com> wrote:

From: Yahoo Service Alert <alertservice2010@hotmail.com>
Subject: Warning!: Yahoo! Mail Verification Alert!!! (KMM69467445654355608644568KM)
To: iamabraxas1@yahoo.ca
Date: Thursday, June 17, 2010, 11:58 AM

My Reply:

(My reply)
Your -Username: uradickhead
Your -Password::thinkimstupid?
Your -Date Of Birth:never
Your -Occupation:fucking yo mama
Your Country Of Residence:uranus

–Notes for those who have a hard time spotting fakes.
1. Note the sent from address. Not only is it not an official yahoo notice email, it was sent from anther company entirely. Very common for this type of crap.
2. It was not written by someone that knows English well. Likely isn’t even a native speaker.
3. Yahoo can tell if an account is being used or not. I had a few addresses I made up for marketing purposes (website directories often send you a bunch of junk mail after you submit sits to them for example), and I went to re-use one and had to reactivate it. Had the same thing happen with gmail too.
4. I pointed out a few things within the mssg that made no sense as well. Such as the Survey header, talking about congested (very full) accounts, then in the very next sentence saying un-used. Etc.